Description
A restrained, powerful memoir in which fly fishing and wilderness provide the structure for a man’s late-life search for his birth mother.
For decades, Mark Cloutier lived with unanswered questions about his adoption, holding them at a careful distance while building a life shaped by rivers, solitude, and the discipline of fly fishing. Only later in life—after the death of his parents and with time pressing in—does he begin the search for the woman who gave him up. That search becomes both external and internal, unfolding alongside days spent fishing Tasmania’s remote highland waters.
Rather than framing fly fishing as escape or lifestyle, Looking for June presents it as emotional architecture: a way of slowing thought, containing anxiety, and creating the mental space required to confront uncertainty. As Cloutier navigates adoption records, genealogical dead ends, and the ethical complexity of reaching out, he also reflects on masculinity, silence, illness, grief, and the long shadow of belonging.
The book weaves together:
• Adoption and genealogy, particularly the emotional weight of searching later in life
• Men’s mental health, explored without confession or sentimentality
• Fly fishing as contemplative practice, grounded in technical knowledge and lived experience
• Immersive nature writing, where rivers and weather mirror interior states.
Written with clarity and restraint, the narrative resists easy answers. The rivers do not solve the problem, but they make it possible to stay with it. Each fishing trip becomes a measured step toward understanding—not just of June, but of the self that has been shaped by absence.
Looking for June is ultimately a book about paying attention: to landscape, to memory, and to the truths that surface only when life is allowed to slow down.
Product Details
Writer: Cloutier, Mark
Release Date: 2027-02-16
FOC Date: 2027-01-12
Page Count: 224
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SKU: 9781923011342
Barcode: 9781923011342
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